Friday 17th June 05 1250am
Today was usual lar. Went to office for work. Had a meeting untill about 5pm then went off to Hougang for canvassing again. I left early to go for my final training with Instructor Kuah before the big day this Sunday. The aim is to fight for a double promotion to the grade of Brown Belt. Wish me luck.
When i got home, Eddie spoke to me online. Well.... as fate would have it, he READ m blog...and all the secrets that were held in it. He made it very clear that he was DISGUSTED, SHOCKED and ultimately, totally put off with me. I dun blame him, In fact, i actually asked for it, didn't i? I should have known better then to write out my true feelings on an ONLINE BLOG.
But i did. Why? I don't know. But the fact remains that i did. And what was the repercussions of that action?
I lost another friend. One that i have really treasured with my heart. Yes. He blocked me on MSN, most likely will never want to meet or speak to me again, not even on the phone. Some might ask me, I KNEW something like that would happen.... Why still go throw myself into the provobal lion's den? I don't know.
I suppose that i wanted to see how far Eddie trusts me to do the right and proper thing. Wether he trusts my PERSON enough to know that in no circumstance will i EVER do anything inappropriate towards him. But i guess that was not to be. In the end, he too walked away. Just like all the other people in my life.
All the best to you bro.... No matter what, you all always be a brother to me.
Thank you for the friendship... It was great while it lasted.
Now, all that's left is for the others to leave ne too... at least, I can die knowing that at least, they are all having a better life elsewhere.
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