Thursday 16th June 106am
GONE
Wednesday morning went to Office then found out that the rest of the gang were already at hougang. They were supposed to meet at Bishan and i never knew it. Anyhow, I managed to get there and did the usual Canvasing thingy. Worked untill about 7pm then had to go down to Lakeside for meeting for the Sci-Fi Fair this Sunday. Got a call from the tuition agency about another assignment, this time to coach an adult on CONVERSATIONAL English. Twice a weak, 1.5Hrs per session for $180 bucks per month. I mean... Come On..... CONVERSATIONAL ENGLISH??? I can't speak well enough to save my life.... now i have to teach someone HOW TO SPEAK? But i am in depreate need of cash... so i took up the assignment. We got on with the meeting until 10pm then rushed back home in time to catch Shaman King on central.
The whole day, i was really worried about Eddie.... has he read my blog, when i specifically told him NOT to? Haiz.... if he HAD, then what was his reaction? Total Repulsion? Dun give a damn attitude? That's the problem really... see, half of me dosen't want to tell him the truth, for fear of losing the brotherly relationship we already have now, Yet the other half compiles me to tell him, because our relationship has always been based on trust and mutual understanding. And he deserves to know the truth, because...well..... He's my brother. Haiz......
But then again... i have already prepared myself for the inevitable. If he should choose to just walk away, then i guess that is his perogative. The point is, as long as he is happy with his life, then i should just leave him be. Certain things should never be forced. I never had anyone whom i can really hold on to and love since i was born.... I guess i never will... Sort of accecpeted my life you know.... Oh well.....
Aching Heart
EarlGrey
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